Melinda Bell

            Living without Proof       

Proof is in the pudding
and the pudding is hot.
Another witch’s life is on trial
for secret thought.

“Prove it—prove you’re not
thinking those thoughts,”
inveighs the inquisitor.  “Spit back
who we say you are and you can live
(but if you do, you’re dead
and if you don’t, we’ve proof enough).”

Now wasn’t that a dainty dish
to set before the King!
 

“Prove you didn’t, prove you’re not,”
inveighs the inquisitor

“should you survive entière
(if so, we’ll see you dead.)” 

With so many planets out there
            exact locations pinpointed by scientists
            diseases detected
            proteins ‘expressed’
            pharmaceuticals devised
            elusive properties observed
            ~ wave if you see a particle ~
            you’d think we could allow
            a little
                      uncertainty.

Prove it, buster
           
we’d say in fifth grade
            and, It’s a free country.
            Well, I want to make
            a federal case out of that!

Give me spirits
to prove that what I think
can’t be proved
beyond all shadows.

 

Melinda Bell moved to the Pacific Northwest in November 1973 and has lived here ever since.  Her early career was in reporting, photography, high school teaching, and public relations for a small college.  She’s studied with many Northwest authors and credits the late Jack Cady (“Tinker,” “The Burning”), with whom she studied at the University of Washington, as her mentor. She’s gained many insights from Northwest writers Ursula Hegi, Jody Aliesan, Kathleen Alcalá, Carol Glickfeld, Bharti Kirchner and others.  She belonged to a “steady, fantastic” writing group in Olympia for many years.

She’s published articles on various issues and has performed poems with the Vancouver Poetry Connection and for a Friends of William Stafford event in January 2001.  One of her poems appeared in Spindrift 1999, and a poem appeared in the Padilla Bay Poets’ Anthology for 1998-2001.  A short story was included in Crab Creek Review’s ten-year anniversary issue in 1994 (under Melinda Bell Howard).


"Placitas, New Mexico" by Melinda Bell

Living in three areas of the country—New England, New Mexico, and the Northwest—has influenced her work.  Until she was fifteen she lived in rural towns in Massachusetts.  From age fifteen to twenty-eight she lived all over New Mexico, where she earned her B.A. at the University of New Mexico.  After she moved to Washington State she settled in Olympia for many years, then moved to the Portland area while earning her MA in English at PSU in 1994-97.  She and her husband live in Vancouver, Washington.

 Questioner: What are you doing now?

 Melinda: Well, last year I realized the novel I was working on was based on too easy a premise and I put it aside to think it over. 

Questioner: Too bad.

 Melinda: Yeah.  Global politics and how they affect what’s going on in the U.S. have been rapidly changing, and thus, I bowed out of using the future as a backdrop.

 Questioner: That’s a bad sign, isn’t it?

 Melinda: What, the future?

 Questioner: Isn’t that just giving your power away to the critics?

 Melinda: No, it’s common sense.  And I’ve got other projects to work on.  I need to finish a manuscript of New Mexico poems, mainly about my fractured family, and I need to get back to my memoir.

 Questioner: Have you published anything lately?

 Melinda: No.  And I’ve hardly written anything lately. 

 Questioner: Are you still a writer, then?

 Melinda: Really a good question.  I take heart from Dorothy Allison (Bastard out of North Carolina)’s admission that she had a long stretch of not writing.  I think I’m coming out of it.  Maybe my life was going too well or something.  Maybe I’m too well fed.

Questioner: You hear that writing autobiography is so self-absorbing, a narcissistic activity.

 Melinda:  It can be.  It depends on your point of view and why you’re doing it. Joelle Fraser, who wrote The Territory of Men, says you need to have a good heart to write good memoir.  One’s motivation can become evident in the writing, and that’s okay.  Keep writing anyway. 

 Write yourself out of that space by going back into it, no matter how ugly it looks.  Your attitude will show—yes, and that can be good if you see it and use it as an opportunity to grow, and by extension, to help others.

 Melinda Bell can be reached at mbdav@juno.com

 What’s up:

Look for a workshop on “Finishing one’s Work” in 2008. It will be held in Vancouver, WA.

In 2006 Melinda offered “In the Heart of Winter, Women Write from the Heart,” a series of Saturday workshops in Vancouver, WA.  Topics included: writing what scares you, what’s poetry got to do with it?, doldrums and ecstatic vision; the mystical process of writing; daily practice; markets; and—“Am I too old to write?”— a resounding no). Special guest Dorothy Blackcrow Mack (see elsewhere in this site) delighted us for a whole day.

 Melinda’s Favorites:

 www.galfromdownunder.com
Lynette Chiang, traveling dynamo, has written such a wonderful travel memoir about her bicycle trip to Cuba.  Even though she says that at one time she was too busy studying science and technology to ever study “great works,” her prose is honest and literary (and quite humorous).  The Handsomest Man in Cuba earned a Silver award from ForewordMagazine.com Book of the Year, 2004.

 www.dorothymack.com
Kirkus Reviews
, April 1, 2001: “Some, like Dorothy Blackcrow Mack, recall the lessons they learned from older women such as her Black Crow mother-in-law Emma (who taught her how to pick sage for the sweat lodge, butcher cattle, and cook native dishes like ‘puppy soup’).” Dorothy is the only Oberlin Ph.D. I’ve ever heard of who helped raise a herd of sacred buffalo.

 www.hevanet.com/grand/
My next-door neighbor when I lived in Portland, Carmen T. Bernier Grand, is a former mathematician and a children’s author whose novel, Under the Shade of the Nispero Tree, Orchard Books, 1999, took a Smithsonian Notable Award. It’s an important book that looks at how even young children can become little racists.   

Carmen’s 1995 book on Don Luis Muñoz Marin, although written for youngsters, is a sourcebook for adults who wish to be knowledgeable about Puerto Rico.

 www.kojischiropractic.com
A gentle, inspirational, and knowledgeable chiropractor in the Vancouver-Portland area.  If it weren’t for John I might still be hiding at home in pain.  I’ve really been feeling strong, and even began an aerobics regime (necessary for writing, don’t you think?).